There was a time when my parents used to say that this is a selfish world have you have to think of yourself first rather than of others. They even used to scold me for being too selfless. And I used to think, "How can they be this way?" Now I guess I know better.
I never thought I would ever see eye to eye with my parents upon this subject. Don't get me wrong, I respect and look up to them. But I am the kind of person who never accepts anything at face value. I need proof, I need practical examples or better experiences. And my experiences, even since I came to college, have taught me that yes, this is a selfish world and no one comes before oneself. It's only me, myself and God.
It is kinda strange and those of you who think the way I used to think won't be comfortable with this theory. You will deny it, oppose it and label me as a 'selfish' person. But you know what? I don't care. Yeah, it's part of the new theory. If no one comes before you, neither does anything they have to say matters to you anymore.
Okay, Lemme clarify a few things. By selfish I don't mean the kind of selfish who doesn't care for the feelings of others and their problems. For example, if you see a very thirsty person and you have water, it would be morally wrong and totally against humanity if you refuse him or her water. I know what I am saying doesn't make much sense but just think over it. The only person in the world who would want the best for you is you, yourself. Parents, friends, spouse or your partner come after that. You know your comfort zone better than anyone else. You know your capabilities and you know what you want. So the only one who could get you what you want is none other than your own self. You know your needs. And so you will look after them.
How many times has it happened that you were thinking of others before yourself and then you were the only one who suffered? Just stop, look back and think about it. I did and I realized that this has happened with me a number of times. One of my friends continuously says to me that I a really sweet and nice because I think of others first. That I put them and their needs and comforts before mine. I never realized how wrong that sounded until much later. When I did, I was already hurt and there was nothing I could do about it. So I did what most people do. Vent my anger in the stupidest way possible. Facebook. I did the very thing I detest. But there, it's done and I can't change anything.
But that day I did decide one thing. I was never gonna let people take advantage of me again. It'll be only me and my comfort and my needs first, before anyone else's. I was done being the 'sweet and nice' person.
Don't misinterpret me please. My closest friends, who understand me and respect my feelings, my parents, my partner still hold more priority for me than I myself do. And they always will. That's the way I am and frankly, I will not have it any other way. But it's high time I stop inconveniencing myself for others. Those days are now gone.
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